Life after love

Who you marry is the most important because they have the potential of making your life Joyful or a nightmare. This past month I’ve been healing. I’m trying to heal. I’m still healing. It hasn’t been easy.

I’ve made a few mistakes like joining Tinder. Terrible idea. Terrible. Terrible idea. Um, but I’ve also made some really good choices. So let me introduce you guys to Ess. My date preferred that I keep her identity, private and I am a gentleman. So I’ll respect it. Ess we, I met Ess on Instagram. Quite a few months ago this year. We’d been talking for quite some time, and we decided we wanted to meet meet up. So we. We picked. We wanted to have our first date in Milan. When we were planning this trip, I remember was a little bit scared because I never met this person. I didn’t know if it would go well. It was actually a big effort to go all the way Catch a bus for three hours in the bus, just to see someone I’ve never met in Milan. Maybe I was being catfished and I really could not go through that again. And, but I just say just remember telling myself like. I’ve already come so far.

I’m not gonna let fear stop me and I’m not, Whatever happens, I tried. I actually tried. The first stop was Duomo di Milano, which is the Milan cathedral. It’s this beautiful, beautiful, beautiful scenic church. We went up to the terrace. Um. Which involves a lot of climbing a lot of stairs and it’s exhausting. I thought you wanted to sit down.

Now you’re running, or you’re running away from this camera? By the way you are silly. I remember sitting on the roof Overlooking this beautiful city Milan, and I remember looking at her and as she was talking about anything and everything. I remember just feeling like I really wanted to kiss her. In front of all these people and tourists. And I remember just looking into her eyes and being afraid. Being afraid that maybe she wouldn’t kiss me back, or being afraid that she doesn’t like me back. and that’s just those nerves you feel just before you do something really Just before you make yourself really vulnerable. 

I just kissed her. It was a really good kiss becausethe scene was perfect. I was out on a date with this beautiful girl.

We went downstairs. There was some street performers playing some music downstairs. And I remember, I remember thinking to myself. My god, it’s been such a long time like I’ve been single so long I forgot how it feels to be with another person. I had forgotten how kissing a girl felt like. I’d forgotten how holding someone’s hand feels like. I’d forgotten how, hugging a person you like. I haven’t been close with anyone for a long time and All these feelings felt new and amazing and I was actually. I’d been missing out on quite a lot.

I’d missed the feeling of having someone you remotely like next to you, and having conversations and I missed it. I remember in one of my previous relationships taking a walk in the park with my then girlfriend and seeing other couples look so in love and kissing. And I remember I used to get so upset because all we seem to do was fight all the time and fight all the time and I was exhausted and I’d forgotten how it feels like to be with someone without the baggage.

And I was grateful for that feeling, I was (sighs) You know being. Finding love is a good thing. There’s nothing wrong with it. There’s nothing wrong with craving someone and companionship, and someone to be there for you.

I’ve been closing myself off for months, for months and months. It’s nice to know I’m still redeemable and I can still find happiness in this life.

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